Please help and excuse meFollow

PLEASE listen and help
(if you can)
i've played FFXI from the beginning of time... I was a very frequent player...
life happened and took its tool on me... im not going to get into details... its a long sad story...
with that being said... I am looking to find Jjay/postal... PLEASE help me.... he was one of my greatest FFXI friends.. this is literally a.... dying wish... my story is one that will be great... to give you a brief incite... if it wasnt for FFXI id not have 2 daughters... FFXI was more than just a game to me... it was the reason why i found love... which ended in tragedy... jjay/postal was my greatest friend and I REALLY want to re-connect with him... please help me find him... Again If anyone or an admin has a way to email him..... please.... i just want to say bye ; ;